"Throwing the Switch"

I know, I know, I know...my guitar has a horrible ground:) Hope y'all can tough it out and possibly enjoy:) For more of the story behind this series of hiccups and speed bumps that morphs into a song, check out the blog www.whisperingdream.com

  So, I've got a ton of random points that stuck out to me after I made this video which will make this more of a rant of sorts rather than a blog...but, for the sake of blogs, we'll call it a blog:

  • So I learned that there is something horribly undoing about the glowing red circle on any recording device. This was a typical Saturday morning, clothes washing in the next room, 2 cups of coffee down, working on the 3rd, Instagram's all checked, world news shows me that things are still...well we're still here, and I pick up my Lady (a.k.a my guitar), and in 1 take I NAILED this new tune that I've been picking on!! Musically, Vocally, Lyrically...EVERYTHING was in sync!!! Then I touched the GODDAMN red button!! HAHAHA!! And now you have this bumpy ride through the writing/playing of music.
  • The mind is SOOOO interesting to me! How; in the course of a couple minutes you can move through the lush green fields of focus (Toss in a splash of variable/distraction) to the barren tundra of fear/panic. I chuckled when I first watched this, because I was able to see my mind working through the speed bumps, and settling back into place (for the most part:) 
  • There's an odd nervous twinge that grabs me whenever I'm attempting anything involving even the slightest bit of pressure; but, MAN it feels good to move through it!! The art of laughing at oneself is invaluable!! Take, for instance, my one and only unblemished V-Neck white T-Shirt (making it automatically my favorite); totally a belly shirt!! HAHAHAHA!!! And now I know, and new shirts are on the way:)
  • I wonder why the humming (bad ground) subsided when it did? Was my mind in full focus? Had I worked through enough distraction? Did the words work some magical spell over my electronics? Or maybe it was just random...
  • This is a new song, and it's essentially a description of an evening. I'm fresh off of work, everything in me is exhausted, and all I want to do, is sit back in my Crazy Creek, and watch the day end...

  I don't have the best record of handling stress in the healthiest of ways, just ask the guys I work with:) It's a haunting flaw, hahaha. But, due to happenstance, the normal levels of stress have BLOWN through my over-sensitive atmosphere!!! HAHAHAHA!! I'm learning new things about myself each day...and they're not always pretty...

  However, there are those epic moments in life (they come preferably at the top of a mountain, where your senses are doing their best to simply struggle taking everything in, or in the time lapse of a solitary glance from your love) where the perfection and beauty of the moment can in NO way be transferred into a picture or something technological. Even though you give chase as if you could ever touch...some moments are SO PURE, that they're sole purpose is the experience of the moment...That was the moment I experienced, just hanging out on my tailgate, watching the day fade, wondering when all of this sudden pressure would subside...I think the key is in letting go (because, realistically, how much control do I REALLY have), flowing, breathing, and LOTS of laughing at myself:) 

Let me know whatcha think:)

"Today I Chose Words"

So this was TOTALLY supposed to be posted nearly two months ago....and then life got CRAZY for a bit:) Anywho...here it goes

It's been and interesting Spring so far this year. Or maybe Im just more aware of the change...That would be AMAZING!! However; it's more likely that: the colors are just THAT gorgeous, The scents are THAT spectacular, And the new life is THAT inspiring

The issue then becomes, removing your ass from the dropped tailgate (upon which you are perched, soaking in the soothing evening light) and putting movement to inspiration...today I chose words

The Vision

I've never had an issue with sitting. Hahaha, it's one of my downfalls...i LOVE to chill!! However; my mind reacts to stillness & calm as a child reacts to the stoic doctor with needle in hand. It's fight or flight!!

Years ago, i had a friend introduce me to sound entrainment. Essentially its an ordered movement of tones that are playing at a certain hertz, preferably through a decent set of headphones. The tones gradually put the brain into a meditative state (at least the tones that i enjoyed listening to), and for the first time, i caught a glimpse of complete stillness. It was UNBELIEVABLE!! I can't imagine what my mind would be like today if i had used this tool on a daily basis from then till now! However, i've noticed over the years, i've a tendency to hold answers in the palm of my hand only to let them go...it's a character flaw...

So there's a little background...Flash forward to 2 days ago...I think we can all recognize when there's TOO MUCH going on upstairs. My subconscious was throwing a bitch-fit! Waking in the morning to a clenched jaw & vivid, irreconcilable visions...it was time to get back into stillness. Usually the first entrainment after a stint of none, doesn't really amount to much. The last time i made it a point to hit it every day was about a month ago. During that time, i was literally seeing images and themes behind closed eyes...feeling asleep yet awake. The last image i saw, before i put it down for a while, was a background colored in reds and blacks, and i remember the feeling of fear, and yet moving towards the fear. The last image was of a hawk flying towards me, slowly at first, then with unimaginable speed, we were eye to eye, and the intensity in its stare was enough to send me back into the world that i had forgotten existed. It was puzzling, exhilarating, and frightening...

So 2 days ago, I got home from work and put on Cory Allen's album "Binaural Beats" (DEFINITELY recommend it), and in no time at all, i'm back in the same hues of deep reds and blacks, and i see the face of a girl & a serpent. The girl was smiling, and it seemed as if the girl and serpent were one body. (i know this is probably getting weird hahahaha, just bare with me) Other people started appearing, and eventually the serpent ate a person. The girl reacted with horror and started screaming "NO!!" The serpent turned and devoured her. The reds and blacks became more intense, and the serpent began to eat each person it encountered. The old symbol of the serpent eating its tail came to mind, then i saw it. The serpent had devoured everything, and had began chasing its own tail, forming a circle, and began devouring itself. I knew that eventually it would consume itself...the music began to fade and i made the mental journey back to my chair...and now i'm playing with the riddles:) 

This is one of the areas in life that intrigues me. Any thoughts...