The Vision

I've never had an issue with sitting. Hahaha, it's one of my downfalls...i LOVE to chill!! However; my mind reacts to stillness & calm as a child reacts to the stoic doctor with needle in hand. It's fight or flight!!

Years ago, i had a friend introduce me to sound entrainment. Essentially its an ordered movement of tones that are playing at a certain hertz, preferably through a decent set of headphones. The tones gradually put the brain into a meditative state (at least the tones that i enjoyed listening to), and for the first time, i caught a glimpse of complete stillness. It was UNBELIEVABLE!! I can't imagine what my mind would be like today if i had used this tool on a daily basis from then till now! However, i've noticed over the years, i've a tendency to hold answers in the palm of my hand only to let them go...it's a character flaw...

So there's a little background...Flash forward to 2 days ago...I think we can all recognize when there's TOO MUCH going on upstairs. My subconscious was throwing a bitch-fit! Waking in the morning to a clenched jaw & vivid, irreconcilable visions...it was time to get back into stillness. Usually the first entrainment after a stint of none, doesn't really amount to much. The last time i made it a point to hit it every day was about a month ago. During that time, i was literally seeing images and themes behind closed eyes...feeling asleep yet awake. The last image i saw, before i put it down for a while, was a background colored in reds and blacks, and i remember the feeling of fear, and yet moving towards the fear. The last image was of a hawk flying towards me, slowly at first, then with unimaginable speed, we were eye to eye, and the intensity in its stare was enough to send me back into the world that i had forgotten existed. It was puzzling, exhilarating, and frightening...

So 2 days ago, I got home from work and put on Cory Allen's album "Binaural Beats" (DEFINITELY recommend it), and in no time at all, i'm back in the same hues of deep reds and blacks, and i see the face of a girl & a serpent. The girl was smiling, and it seemed as if the girl and serpent were one body. (i know this is probably getting weird hahahaha, just bare with me) Other people started appearing, and eventually the serpent ate a person. The girl reacted with horror and started screaming "NO!!" The serpent turned and devoured her. The reds and blacks became more intense, and the serpent began to eat each person it encountered. The old symbol of the serpent eating its tail came to mind, then i saw it. The serpent had devoured everything, and had began chasing its own tail, forming a circle, and began devouring itself. I knew that eventually it would consume itself...the music began to fade and i made the mental journey back to my chair...and now i'm playing with the riddles:) 

This is one of the areas in life that intrigues me. Any thoughts...