Breathe...

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"I hang a memory 'round my neck

To ease the burden in my chest

Remember child...To breathe..."

  A few years back, though it always seems like yesterday, a friend gifted me with this necklace after a long, AMAZING walk through the woods. He introduced me to the notion of "The here and now... The present moment". It was only a concept to me then, having spent most of my life, hidden in my mind...in the past...and so COMPLETELY unaware of the beauty that exists in each moment! So it's kinda my every-day reminder, though somedays it's deeply subconscious, that, it's ok to breathe, drink your coffee while listening to each bird usher in the morning sun in its own way, and let the moment envelope each and every one of your senses...allowing the multitude of thoughts to come and go...like your breath

  The mind's an amazing thing! The way that we develop patterns without any perceived effort, whether good or bad, and how these patterns can become hardened/cemented into our existence, until they seem to be a "part" of us as people...it's mind-bending at times. Yet, in my experience this far, I've learned that I'm responsible for creating "Heaven" or "Hell" in each moment. Someday's that's a KILLER realization (killer being a good thing)!! Somedays...not so much...the necklace becomes heavy, and I lose "The Moment" as I make the quick leap back into my mind, losing touch...staying safe...

  Life, with its ebb and flow, seems to have an intelligence all its own, knowing when you need a kick in the ass to get you (the REAL you) back on track...creating heaven...

  It was a stiflingly muggy friday morning at work as we roll up to the first job. Nothing out of the ordinary, someone cutting grass had busted the tempered glass in a patio door, and we were there to replace it. My mind is there, but it feels like I'm mentally multi-tasking as i'm also pondering how to make music for a living versus cutting glass for the rest of my life. Then we meet the customer, and within the first two sentences of introductions, the customer makes a comment that hurtles me back into the present..."This will be a sad, but a good day"... I look up and the older gentleman had tears welling up in his eyes, as he went on to tell us how his wife, of 50 years, had gone into seizures when she heard the glass break, because it had scared her so bad. She had died 5 days later............

  These are the moments that seem to bring everything back into the reality of NOW. And then you take a breath, make an attempt at vocalizing some comforting words to ease his pain, and continue on with each moment.....later on, realizing all you have is now...so stay here:)

  This was a beautiful bummer...a moment in time where I want to be able to close my eyes, breathe in, and exhale some words of comfort and light, or at least emit a glow of care, when there are no words to say. This magic occurs only in the present....

So STAY PRESENT, BREATHE, and hold your loved ones CLOSE:)